finally understanding this!
finally understanding this!
Today I weighed in and hit 80 pounds lost! I can’t believe I’m only 19 away from the BIG 1-0-0!!! I can still remember losing my first 20 and how far away this current point felt but in less than a year I have accomplished so much!
I still have a long way to go but everything in me is assured that I will get there!!!
I fell back a couple steps. I’m climbing again. to be the person.I know I can be. I’m ready!
Honey Nut Cheerios and chocolate milk! Mmmm! (Taken with Instagram)
Cheryl’s 21! Partay! (Taken with Instagram)
Rainbow in Telluride! (Taken with Instagram)
I wish this was true
With a Kindle, you won’t have this wall. <3
Yesterday is the past.
Regrets can only exist if you choose not to learn from bad experiences,
or maybe just not doing something.
Learning from whatever you have or haven’t done is the key to move on.
To continue on with living your life to the fullest.
Tomorrow is the future.
Unpredictable for the most part,
or maybe it may just be another day to get over with.
Cherishing each day as each moment is lived is a key to happiness.
But for now, take this moment of today,
Whether it’s for a learning experience of a downside,
or living this exact moment to the fullest as can be.
For tomorrow will not be discovered till it’s a yesterday.
Having a person, thing, or activity to look forward to motivates one to live on through the day.
Without that, whatever it is, sometimes is hard to get your first leg out of bed.
Loosing one of the most important people I know, has taught me so many morals and has encouraged me to keep dreaming and keep making goals.
Life isn’t worth living unless you, yourself, push you, to keep going.
Friends and family are the crutch in which can help stabilize you to rise again when you fall, but using the strength you have deep within you is the only thing that can truely keep you moving and living.
Having something to keep you motivated helps so much:
It keeps the light at reach,
It keeps sanity alive,
It keeps hope and love around.
It keeps you at a place where you can continue to rise, rise high above.
believe in yourself,
& trust in yourself;
for these are a few clues to true happiness.
Others will see the confidence you have for yourself, which will draw them to you.
If you are happy, people will want to be around you.
If you love yourself, those who love you, will be there forever.
Trusting yourself will allow others to trust you.
Believing in yourself will allow you to go as far as you want to.
Giving up is never the answer.
Use whatever, whoever you can to find yourself again.
Reach for the light.
Even when it seems utterly impossible, it’s there.
It’ll always be there.
Live your life to the fullest.
Live with as little regrets as possible.
Learn from the mistakes.
Cherish every second, moment, and day you have;
for you never know when it may be the last of your life, or the last of someone elses.
Just don’t give up.
Just around the corner,
Will be the first Christmas without you.
Memories will flood my brain,
Causing tears to leak down my face.
The delicious food will be devoured by everyone but you.
The Christmas tree will be hollow without your presents.
The air will not be complete without your presence.
You were the one that gave Santa away,
All because you forgot what “Santa” bought me.
Looking at the village….
Decorating the Christmas tree….
Will never be the same.
Although I know you love me the same.
I know you’re there in spirit.
This Christmas will be the hardest yet.
It already is…
Knowing you just won’t be here.
The stockings on the ledge above the fireplace…
Won’t be stuffed full of silly things that you love to fill them with.
But what I’ll miss more than all the presents,
all the food,
all the cookies treats,
all the little village people and their houses,
more than the big green tree that leaves needles on the ground,
will be you.
I desire so much just to be a little kid again,
Excited to see what Santa will bring me,
Running around with my nieces,
Eating all the delicious cookies we made every year,
Making a complete mess of the kitchen for you to clean.
I desire so much to have you here with me on my 18th Christmas,
To share this Christmas holiday.
Barely classified as an adult and your gone.
I just want to feel your arms hug me once again.
Hearing your voice tell me “I love you”
Knowing my pain in the butt Mother,
is the greatest Momma ever.
This Christmas will be new to me without you.
I miss you so very much.
I wish you could be here with everyone.
To enjoy another great Christmas.
Just to see your smiling face one more time,
To know that you’re okay.
I love you, Mom.
I love you so very very much.
I hope heaven is just as you dreamed.
Tell everyone hi for me.
I send you hugs, kisses,and love in endless amounts.
Holes replace what used to be;
Aches of hurt singe what seems to be left.
Confusion is what is obvious.
Depression is at bay,
while anger is present.
Hope is there, wanting to see what’s around the corner.
It’s what is known as the only thing that truely matters here on what is referred to as Earth.
No matter where one peers,
It is there, floating in the air.
True happiness would be only a dream.
Hate wouldn’t exist.
Would chaos be around the corner?
Desire wouldn’t be desire.
Could life even be possible?
It doesn’t matter who it is between,
It’s plentiful and beautiful.
The aches it causes,
are only learning experiences to grow from.
people grow apart.
people learn to accept it’s not possible.
people take advantage of it.
people are scared of it.
people, truely, cherish it and use it to it’s full potential, and sometimes, even more.
It’s frightening, yet exciting.
It’s tormenting, yet delightful.
It’s ugly, yet beautiful.
Between a mother and father and their child,
this is unconditionally, sensational.
Between a friend and a friend,
it’s stressful, but reassuring.
Between a dog and it’s owner,
it’s playful and comforting.
Between a younger boy and girl,
it’s disgustingly cute.
Between a elderly man and woman,
it’s peacefully, beautiful.
No matter where one glances,
love is there to torture you, but to embrace you, too.
Love surrounds everyone in some form.
Even if it seems like love is horrible,
no matter what one does, love is there.
Love tests one’s emotional strength.
It raises one high, then it comes falling down on you.
Love makes one question themselves.
It makes one second guess their faith.
It tests your barriers.
Love can make one want to tear their hair out of their skull.
It makes one go crazy.
There are those, who choose not to see the light after a great fall.
They choose to go farther and farther down.
They push other loves away.
Fading into the darkness, with no hope of returning above.
But, there are those, who reach for every helping hand,
to rise again.
To gain strength again.
Love is there;
It’s a desire everyone, to some degree, truely has and hopes for.
Scared people, take advantage of it, sometimes.
Making others doubt it’s full beauty.
Hopefully, at some point, they realize it’s there and they keep going, and let it happen when it’s supposed to.
Honesty is important in love,
no matter who it’s between.
Remember, those who truely love you, will always be there for you.
Believe they will be there for you, no matter what.
No matter the fights you will have, they will be there.
Be not afraid of love.
Sometimes it’s harsh and painful,
but it’s only that way to grow from and respect it’s true beauty.
It’s what is truely important in this life you live.
This life is the only one, you truely know you will live,
So laugh, love, learn, live, forgive, and forget, for life is too short to be living with regrets.